I DON'T WANT TO GROW OLD! IT'S TOO FAST!

Oh my god! I can't believe that I'm growing old every year. You know, although I'm fifteen this year, I don't really think that I'm actually fifteen. Get it? I'm still acting as if I'm suffering from deprived childhood. I really don't want to grow old. I want to be thirteen forever, when you're just about to grow up and act as if you're as big as eighteen! Haha! (ewwww, please lah eh!)

I'm the youngest in the family. Obviously I'm pampered in certain ways.. Ms Ina told me that I sound very pampered..Yet it's not in terms of luxuries..It's the way I speak to my family..Very manja.. Haha! Indeed it's true. The way I speak to my family is a whole different thing when I speak to my friends. My family know my true colours the most! I can pamper with them..I can act as if I'm just a lil' baby! I can be whoever I want to be..Of course..Don't overdo it..Menyampah sia! I may seem like a beast..Tall/Always frowning..But the truth is..I think I'm CRAZY! Well, what do you all know? Like I said, family knows me the best! So don't always judge a book by its cover! First judge is always not NECESSARY :) (I regretted my past. I used to judge a person just by first glance..Well now I guess I know how it feels)

So why am I posting this? Well, maybe because I just want people to know more about me. Most of the people outside judge me too fast. You know teenagers nowadays..They don't look at you mentally..They judge you physically..You know how frustrating that is? But who cares? I don't. I don't care how you judge me. What matter most is that you know yourself the best..and that your family recognise you for that. You don't have to be somebody you wished to be. You don't have to be pretty to be surrounded by so called "Cool friends". Nah! You just have to be yourself. Moreover, i don't believe friends exist. Out of 100000000 friends you've got..Only 1 can be your real true friend..I don't know why I'm talking like this..Perhaps I can already see where its going. Oh come on, I used to have a friend..I thought she could last long with me..But I guess people change? Teenagers like you and I..We just want to have fun..But when you reach a certain age, it's when you will start to reflect what you've done..yadayadayada! I don't really want to talk about it. I'm still young! what am I expecting?? Man...

One day, when I grow up, I want to go University(insyallah)..After that, I want to gain more knowledge..Then I want to work and get a high pay..After I get a good pay, I want to repay my family with what I earned. I hope I don't get too overboard that I have to be so bloody arrogant and forget where my root is. Insyallah, that won't happen. I just want to have a good life with a good future. I don't want to be someone who doesn't even know what the hell good future is..I want to succeed. I know there will definitely be ups and downs..but with determination and perseverance, anything can happen right? Oh my god, aku berbual macam faham aja..Lol.

Whatever la! Today is thursday, 10th december 2009. I'm gonna go for my extraction later. Kinda scared for this one..It's okay. I have my lovely sister beside me!

Eh you know, yesternight..I think around 11 plus..alifah texted me this! Somehow, I find it cute..YET, i'm embarrassed..But i guess it's already in my family blood to be cute! LOL!! (perasan!)

"Hi. Hehe. Tdi i saw you w your sis kat busstop laughing and punching each other. Then i thought i saw your dad pakai kain kat bwh your block. If that's really him, then you have a vry cute family! Hehe"

Hahaha! Oh my god! The moment I read this message, I was laughing out loud! Malu nya! But what's there to be embarrassed? I have a cute family :) (especially me)

LALALALLA. any objection? HAHAHAH. don't care.

I'm so bloody embarrassed to smile with my bloody metal teeth! so bear with it!











I'm so bloody embarrassed to smile with my bloody metal teeth! so bear with it!

Damn! I'm so bloody worn out now. I just got back from class outing @ Sentosa, siloso beach. Well, it was SATISFYING that I was able to meet up with my dearest friends but frankly, it was a lil' bit too mundane. But still! I'd like to thank Adibah for her effort to organise a game that was tiring yet frustrating but I'm sure they had fun, in a way or so. Overall, I enjoyed riding the LUGE(which initially i dun even knw what the hell it was!) and SKYRIDE(which Nazeer kept on saying the wrong names continuously!).

You know, when I rode the SKYRIDE with Aisyah(since there were 10 people riding, we split to 2 person per ride. So, I kept on shouting and talking with Aisyah. It has been ages lah since I talked to her..So today was an opportunity(thank god I had the chance). After that, the malays and the chinese did their own business until the very end. It wasn't that "organised". It looked like as if we were RACIST(which really, we're not). So at the end of the day, the malays..If you're wondering who..It was Johan,Nazeer,Adli,Shamir,Mahathir,Amirul,Aisyah,Haziqah,Hudah,Seri..We went home together. Rode the train together. I swear, we were very tired! But the most tired one was me(i think?)..cause I didn't talk until we stopped at Woodlands. Whouh. Between us, I think we had a little bit of fun. So yeah, that was it for today :).

Erm, yes you. I'm already falling for you. Oh no, is there any ways that I can get rid of you? But I guess I couldn't..No matter how many times I've tried..It's just so ..Aisyah, you know I know eh! I can't really get over it. AHAH. GILA SEH AKU. AISYAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Wait, I think I'm going insane with korean guys already! shit! Don't you think that they're HOT? and most importantly, CHARISMATIC AND CUTE? Shitshitshit! If only my parents give me enough money to travel to South Korea and find me all the korean artists, I'll be so bloody happy! Shitshit!

i want to marry jo kwon(top priority!).
i want to have a dating session with Big Bang(Lol!)
i want to make another series of Idol army and be involved with 2pm!(though jae's not ard)
...There's many more! shit! How to get rid of them out of my mind eh? (!!!??!)

WAIT! it's not only that! I'm also curious if they smell good or not..HAHAHAH. I'm so crazy!! If they smell good(especially JO KWON), I'll volunteer myself to get admitted in woodbridge hospital! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.

I LOVE YOU TOP!

I've changed my number(AGAIN!). I've changed my handphone(AGAIN!). It's so pathetic. I lost my E63 at home! Until now, it's still missing! Stupid lah! I don't know how it went missing..But really, it hurts. You know how I take care of things right? Haha, I'm very CAREFUL you know. Especially when it's a gift from someone. Pfft. Sorry Syidda! Haha. I didn't mean to lose it..But shit always happen right? So don't blame me. =P

I think my friends will get angry with me! Hehe! I keep on changing number like nobody's business. I think now, I have 3 numbers, but I'm no longer using the other 2 because I'm sticking to one number. Pfft, ask me if you want to know ok? :)

Since my E63 is still on the look-out, I lost all my contacts. So please, get me updated! Especially to my schmates(!!).

Anyways, I'm having a class outing this tuesday at Sentosa. WOAA, gerek pe? Besides, since my eldest sister is working at Sentosa, I can meet her!(!!). Weeeeeeee! Meeting time : 0900hrs(I hope I can wake up early)

P/S: Have you ever wonder how it feels to be insulted in public? Pfft.